Where do I begin?! It has been months since I have written a blog post and I have been meaning to share these maternity photos taken by Megan Lee Photography for over 6 months. Yikes! Life has been wild since these were taken, like so wild so I guess I will just start at the beginning with my pregnancy. We found out pretty early on that I was pregnant because I can’t contain myself when I think I might be pregnant and take like a million pregnancy tests. It started out really good and I was really optimistic. Then at about 8 weeks I started having the not so fun symptoms. I was tired most of my pregnancy and would try and sneak a nap in every day. I threw up quite a lot in the beginning and here is an embarrassing confession: for some reason when I am pregnant and I vomit I have NO control over my bladder so I have to end up changing my pants after I throw up! It’s the worst! But it’s only when I am pregnant so thank goodness for that! I craved Taco Bell every day. And before we knew the gender, I would have bet a million dollars the baby was a boy. Even when we found out she was a girl, I didn’t believe it. Florabelle was really excited to have a new baby and Gus began an insane love affair over my belly which is still ongoing.
Pregnancy was hard and it seemed like I had a lot on my plate. I felt crazy that I was having another baby. Every day that thought entered my mind: “I am crazy!” I think it is somewhat normal to feel this way while pregnant. I wish I had some inspiring words and feelings to share about my pregnancy but it was pretty normal and this being my third pregnancy, I didn’t have that smug attitude that a LOT of women get about feeling empowered and like they are the only ones that have ever had a baby and they are more important than everyone because of it. Nope, didn’t feel like that but this was my third so I think it’s safe to say that I like being a mom in all aspects and I really do think pregnancy is amazing and miraculous. I mean so many things have to come together just right for a perfect baby and perfect babies are born every day. It’s a miracle. Anyways, my pregnancy with this sweet little girl was a blessing despite the seemingly ordinary miserable pregnancy symptoms and I felt it should be documented nonetheless.
I also wanted to share why this post took me so long to get to. Reason 1 is that I didn’t feel like looking back at the last nine months of my life when I should have. As soon as I got these pictures back I was too pregnant and tired to care (if you have ever been full term, you know) I know, I am lame. Shortly after this little girl was born, we found out that my brother in law and his wife were getting a divorce which devastated me and made me want to just hold on to my babies and hubby a little tighter and let all other things go. I was drunk on newborn love. Then something else pretty groundshaking happened in our lives. As you may or may not know, my husband is getting his law degree and decided to get his MBA along with it. He finished up his last semester in the MBA program and I was really proud of him. He managed to get a 3.4 GPA and was elected to be the student ambassador of his class. He also won an award for his work in the program as most ethical student, the prestigious Standing Tall award. He was balancing school and family life so well. However, there is a stipulation in the MBA program that one cannot get more than 1 C grade the entire time they are enrolled in the program. My husband received his 2nd C, a C+ (a class in which the professor didn’t know English very well I might add) . So without a bat of an eye the Dean of the program dismissed Skyler. Well, there were quite a few injustices that happened along with that. It tore us up inside. Skyler was not treated fairly at all and was not given notice of any proper procedure to appeal. We could have fought and probably gotten the administrators in that program in serious trouble but it would have been a lot of work and the desired outcome was unlikely. So we decided to just let it go. A year of our lives and a year of tuition let go. It wasn’t easy but we felt at peace about the decision. Suddenly Skyler didn’t have any plans for the summer and he scrambled to find what to do. He ended up doing an externship for a Judge in a town about 4 hours away so I was alone with three young kids a lot over the summer. I also traveled back home to Idaho a lot. I have been very busy since our girl was born and most of it was just letting our emotions soak in. So that is why this post was not out sooner! I also have a post coming soon just about my labor and delivery. Be sure to check it out! Thanks for reading! I would love to hear from you!